Criteria - The Life lyrics

Can you help this life A strangled by ??? From difference The window seat has become An unreflected form of Blind forgiveness I know you should be hearing this in person But i'm not at home And you're not here So patiently i wait here by the phone For your call I fought life And i cannot lie I wish a ??? could cauterize A self inflicted open wound I know how to guess again You say that's life You say that's life All i know All i know is i'm hopeless Unless i am ripping for you Cause the life that you give me is wholesome Every day I want to Renew, renew, renew