Coy Bowyer - Existing (Rough Demo) lyrics

Skit 1 ... I gotta find another meaning... Existing... Existing.. How I get in this condition? Nobody caring if I'm living Nobody hearing when I'm screaming Existing... How I get in this condition? Nobody caring if I'm living Chorus 1: Existing... How I get in this condition? Nobody caring if I'm living Nobody hear me when I'm screaming I gotta find another meaning I gotta find another meaning... now Existing Verse 1: Never am I satisfied Double up that platter size Ever cop my girl a ring, she know that thing be saturn sized Vision not for fragile eyes My vision not for fragile eyes Full package, I just wish the sh** could have arrived A lil' quicker For my liver filled with liquor And my flame had run its course There's no more wicker for my flicker Guess I'm out that family picture Momma caught me selling dope Sat me down, we had a talk A lot of me she'll never know Grandma got that cancer now Used to write me letters Send me money in my cards, I only felt the need to answer now? Sorry that I ain't around Know that you gon' make it through Hoping, know I pray for you, don't know who I'm praying to Shout out to my baby boo, yes I know away I moved That's physically, not mentally I'm trying not to stray from you And trying to stay faithful's proving harder than it's ever been b**hes always target those who settled in I swear to God, but settle down Know you my forever Wow So many believed in me I feel like I just let them down Double up these efforts Why they getting all my credit now? f** it, they don't get it, I'ma wet them, I'ma let it (gunshot noise) f** it, I'll go back to making sh**ty sounding basement tracks When ain't nobody played my sh** except for me Play it back, play it back, and play it back Think of ways to make it crack Turn my back to criticism Maybe I should face the facts It's crazy that, I went from selling Z's to moving P's and sh** (huh) Losing K's to those I thought were proven G's and sh** (ahhhh) damn Coy, you a genius kid (huh) All I need my crew and me that's it Chorus 2: Existing... How I get in this condition? Nobody caring if I'm living Nobody hearing if I'm screaming Existing.. I gotta find another meaning I gotta find another meaning..now Existing... How I get in this condition? Nobody caring if I'm living Nobody hear me when I'm screaming Outro: Eyes... Those blue days Those yellow rays They'll never fade... Her green eyes Those blue rays Those yellow rays They'll never fade... They'll never fade Existing