CoolΔSwim - Starfish lyrics

I'm scared to go outside and that sh**s not quirky I'm paranoid for my life cause the world might hurt me That's not nerdy, that's not cute I'm not the perks of being a wallflower I'm all crouched up inside my room Because it's all I know how to do As a recluse I eat soup and make music watch cartoons and feel stupid And feeling stupid is stupid because there's no right way to be human This is a truth that should be evident to every man and woman Transgender, gender non conformist, whatever You get the point kid But I still order pizza and feel sad Hot chocolate in a tea cup when I feel mad I never keep to many friendships that's my fault though I always want people for romantic affection Not even s** but just cuddle and maybe just say I love you But it's not healthy to have that practice with every girl I'm tryina break the habit I'm such a lazy f*ggot I skip cla**es Just to mastuebate in my attic I'm with my cat just writing poetry Not even smoking whether or not I'm sober the demons are gonna take hold of me I don't like to meet no people I always an*lyze them like some type of skinny android But then I never chat or make some funny jokes I just stand there I'll follow you on tumblr though Alone is where I feel most comfortable But in college I know that I'll have to have someone close Inject me with extrovertedness I'll take the double dose This song is so f**ing sappy it's gross I feel happy when I buy new clothes Or when my mom buys me food Or when my fans say they like my music, that's cool I'm a simple man to an extent I'm content to an extent I don't wanna repent Because if god forgives all than regardless I'm heaven sent And if there's no god at all well I'll just have to wait and see I used to contemplate suicide just to see what's on the other side But you see the obvious flaw in that God I'm wack I don't drink coffee black I don't drink coffee at all or ice cream or watch breaking bad I like the idea of hot water and taking baths I don't like that half my ideas just go and make me sad I hope you see me as more than an image on the internet to make you laugh Bedroom raps (Bedroom raps) (Uhm, sorry if that was weirdly personal or something Oh, it's okay Kawaii God, I'm sure they don't mind Uh, well alright, I hope this isn't awkward or anything Uhm, thanks for listening)