ContakZ - XXII lyrics

Twenty Two years I'm starting to see it This world is gone bring you nothing but bereavement Sorrow and sadness for four out of five Took the four four and aimed at my eye Four out of five years my last was a struggle Miss my best friend so I'm causing this trouble Pulling my mind up up out of the rubble Needed a hero to keep from the stumbles Through blood sweat and tears I fought to get fans Trying to take something that i could demand Stuck at the bottom for so long I'd fight Became a man first and then I saw the light Thinking of different ways that I could reach you Without causing damage you're gla** I can see through you All of the things that we do now are evil But I'm necessary and your'e not my equal You causing me problems I'm bringing you drama Toting that deuce for my pops and my momma My brother stay watching don't do as I do Because I do this for me and I do this for you So the deuce that I carry Is making me scary Do not push the kid because then things will get hairy No ifs and no maybes I'm k**ing it lately Least in my mind i don't think that I'm crazy WHAT! Should I calm down I been savvy for a minute I'm a bomb now I been waiting to k** waiting to give my all But I'm thrown to the side by you But of all of the people who I thought would show me the support Would be my fam but alas they ignoring your boy Unless I get 10k views on the tube So I'm cutting yall off don't act all bruised Now I'm causing all this damage and you say I spit heat Trying to get me on your tracks guess what I ain't free You left me to the side and put them over me But whenever you needed help I was the first who would speak Now you feeling like I owe you Cuz i know you Put me on your tracks and I'll trash your tape Spitting this s**ual a**ault so a verse gets raped Bars nine to five straight through don't get no breaks Done being patient while you hating Imma take what's mine Suffered five years of this now I thinks it's time For the Nephilim to rise and begin his shine Forget everything you heard Imma jump this line Pushing all whose in front of me Don't care if you called next Taking controllers out of hands and I'm breaking your pads "ContakZ calm down!" Nah fella I'm mad Should've known this would happen now I actually snap Been trying to make my name known But they put me on hush Trying to tell me I s** And I had felt this too much It had me stuck in a rut While other rappers out here get a chance to bust Like it's public transportation while they acting all sus Wearing blouses while their mouth is spouting gibberish huh Now it's making sense what Eminem would say Except put me in the place where they forgot about Dre Underestimated by those in the same position They tripping thinking that I'm weak I just may start dissing Blurring the vision of my enemies when I start shining K It's in my DNA to double up one time pray You see daylight or like Math catch hands I'm a disaster with a mic my mobs Flowey and Sans I ain't worried about a thing because they ain't gonna try and fight me No wonder my peers hate me they must wanna be like me I see them look and staring point and laugh when I show But be nodding they while they in the front row Telling me that I'm dope And you want a free collab from me But if I were to ask you would Lebron and try to charge me Caught them slipping I'm whipping working it O.T I don't give two squirts whatever they tried to show me Abolishing careers destroying dreams while I'm coasting Figure me out or get rolled on make a choice b Make a choice I finally feel like I'm starting to make noise But even close friends telling me that I should quit But the fact of the matter is this is all I am I have no other talent rappings all that I got I don't want to be stuck working some mindless job Mindless Jah send help still stuck in a rut Dear Lord help your son because it's destroying your boy I don't want to go back to not liking who I was And if they answer lies in Heaven then I still look up Keeping my head held high taking hits on the chin Trying to stay a saint in a world filled with Sin Dear God, I know that you can hear me I know a part of you feels the pain that I am feeling Got me sitting here reeling In the fetal position kneeling With eyes watery tearing Wishing that you would hear me The deuce is out and I'm aiming The mirror a haunted painting It's ever morphing and changing To what I fear it's the same thing That I am still in the picture surrounded by all of my failures Five years later and i still can't hear you Twenty Two now I feel you Working inside of my head Listen to what you yell Listen not what they tell Continue to go beyond Go and get your shine Your friend she's doing just fine She's watching from up above She told you never give up She sees you kicking your rhymes Through all the dirt and the grime You'll meet her at the finish line Nephilim it's time Now rise you got a job to finish and then you're mine I've chosen my path (go on) The doubts in my fam (gone) They favors they ask (gone) Those who said I can't (gone) I'm living and you were wrong And nobody here stopping him Everybody watching him Steady trying to copy him A god no flopping him Forget an introduction Welcome yall to the Nephilim Twenty Two Years now and nobody truly stopping him Nephilim Now that that actually hurt my lungs But it's whatever XXII