Conflicted Prodigy - So Alone Pt.1 lyrics

[Chorus/Hook] And I've been going through hell; Caught in a vicious spell Blinded by the lies, crossed course, stumbled and fell I'm feeling so alone, I think I'm 'bout to explode System overload [Verse 1: ARMAGEDDON] I'm not good enough I'm worthless Stuck on you like my first kiss You still are my first love Never been high before Suggest me some good d** Cuz I need to numb the pain You're etched Into my f**ing brain Youre slowly, driving me insane While I'm quickly, driving you away You told me you loved me What a f**ing lie Cus I found out You were waiting for that other guy And I've been hurt A lot before Think I found the key to love But now you're blocking The damn door I'm fighting Don't know what for Do I even give a f** Or do I give a f** more I'm high now Don't even know what I'm on I think it's working I don't know whats going on I'm losing it Losing my damn mind Phone dead, can't even check the time [Chorus/Hook] And I've been going through hell; Caught in a vicious spell Blinded by the lies, crossed course, stumbled and fell I'm feeling so alone, I think I'm 'bout to explode System overload [Verse 2: Conflicted Prodigy] Tell me where you are, and why I'm not there Because ever since you've left, I've become more aware Of this hole in my chest, that is always aching I know I want you back, there is no mistaking So tell me exactly what I did and where I went wrong Cause without you by my side I can't get along By myself, how am I supposed to face my inner demons? Please wake me up and tell me that I'm only dreaming Cause if this is reality then put me to sleep Take me out of my misery and to the Lord my soul to keep They say there's strength in numbers, but I'm all alone I'm calling out to you, but you never pick up the phone I've become best friends with your answering tone Words never hurt, but this silence alone Hurts way worse than any stick or stone Listen, I'm sorry that I messed up, but I'm accident prone [Chorus/Hook] And I've been going through hell; Caught in a vicious spell Blinded by the lies, crossed course, stumbled and fell I'm feeling so alone, I think I'm 'bout to explode System overload [Verse 3: ARMAGEDDON] So baby last night I was drinking No, I'm sorry wait Last night I was thinking We should get away Just for the weekend And then maybe we can stay And be in peace then I got a room We can stay up at the Easton Get something to eat then Go back to the room, yea we'll just creep in Slide into bed Forget, all the stupid sh** we said So baby last night I was smoking No, sorry again Last night I was home and You kept appearing in my thoughts That's when I did some digging, pull out some cloths Just the old blanket you gave me We were just teens then, still are, but it got me thinking As I always do, what I did was dumb But I never stopped thinking of you [Chorus/Hook] And I've been going through hell; Caught in a vicious spell Blinded by the lies, crossed course, stumbled and fell I'm feeling so alone, I think I'm 'bout to explode System overload [Verse 4: ARMAGEDDON] So baby last night I was cheating No, I'm sorry, I was having trouble breathing So baby last night I did it all again I'm not even sorry, but maybe we can pretend What we had never reached an end I'll just give you my hand if you give me yours A second chance, something we didn't get before If you want, what are you waiting for We can start this all over