Coldplay - Conflicted Mind lyrics

[Hook - Coldplay] Trying hard to speak and Fighting with my weak hand Driven to distraction It's all part of the plan When something is broken And you try to fix it Trying to repair it Anyway you can [Verse 1] I grew aware of my motivation I found my own destination I was growing up, losing family too This happens to everyone, nothing new But when I get a Grammy, no recognition But when I'm gone, my keys in the ignition I won't look back on fonder days Those people hope I ponder my ways God tells me to forgive, but I can't My pride tells me to forget, I'm the man In charge of my glory, don't need approval Pay homage to a young blood, tribunal And by God, a man scorned by time Only does great or leads a life of crime Keep your eyes on your bread, don't mind The howls of the beasts who trail behind Can't follow orders, I remain leading Sacrifice myself to a greatness that I'm bleeding [Hook - Coldplay] [Verse 2] Haven't seen you since I was a kid Growing up, I loved you and I thought you did But now, years pa**ed, and you ain't ish I tried to refrain from using language But my mind is saying eff you, go to Hell If you come back when I'm famous, hope all is well Tell me that you loved me, but I could never tell With the way that you and all the others fell And the only one I ever see is my uncle and my granny Believe that I won't ever mention you when I get a Grammy And that man I barely know better recognize that I'm d**h I'm deadlier than deadly, he won't ever fathom the depth I've been writing in darkness, spitting rhymes in the darkness Watching pain form in the heart and over coming the hardest But know, that a child won't ever understand a family torn This was the bull that happened long before I was even born [Hook - Coldplay] [Outro] You should have known that I would snap You should have known that I would rage You tell me that you love me and leave one day? You tell me that I could do great things, you say? I'm damn great and I hope you realize That losing you is my greatest pain I'm just saying, this what happens when you have a conflicted mind When you fall into this pit of darkness you don't even understand Where you have to see counselors and shrinks I don't think you can comprehend You never had to fight a day in your life with that, now did you? No...