Civilian - Judas lyrics

When I heard, it occurred to me like a break in the ice That this wouldn't work That's the day I learned to run for my life Guarding the door was every single love that's ever lost I wept in their arms They said, "Man, we've been there before." And then I think That life's been as good as it's been a ba*tard I'm not damaged, just discouraged A little tired, that's all Darkness has a way of robbing me But love is love is love And that changes things I've been an addict for most of my life To both naked women and fighting the good fight I've been impaired for far too many nights To look in the mirror and hope for a wife If I keep on it won't get easier But it's the only choice I've got I am not damaged, just discouraged I'm human, and that's all Darkness has a way of robbing me But love is love is love And that changes things When who I've become is tearing me up I'm reminded Affection exceeds the depth of my grief I'm reminded that No one ever thinks themselves a Judas Rope in hand walking toward the tree Should you ever find you're out of options Brother, you can hang around with me