Christopher Jackson - Never Felt Like This Before lyrics

[NARRATION] When he's done he enters Nina's room. She gazes at Benny who's fast asleep next to her. As Nina lies back down Lincoln enters through the fire escape. Benny awakens, he sees him. He begins getting dressed. Nina (?) [BENNY] Lincoln, Lincoln (?). I'll just be a second (?) I don't know what to say [BENNY] [LINCOLN] We can work this out Nina We don't have to shout Nina We don't have to work to rip the world out now Are you (?) try [BENNY] Please let her (?) You're (?) If you just breathe then we will leave (?) Leave her be you and me You can see that I am no longer afraid (?) I sleep in the bed I made And you should know you weren't betrayed because Lincoln I love her Lincoln I love her (?) Please... anything [NINA] What's going on? Lincoln what's going on? [LINCOLN] Benny was just filling me in Telling me all about your night [LINCOLN] [BENNY] Now I don't know where to begin Nina, Nina making you fall for all his lies He says he's never felt like this before Please just wait [LINCOLN] He's known you all his life but now he's suddenly in love with you And shoving me out of your room So is it true? Is it true? [BENNY] Lincoln. I'm only doing what you taught me You told me to follow my heart and this is where my heart has brought me This isn't easy for me to say but I said it So give me a little credit, I'm trying to be level headed Plus I never felt this way about anyone The thought of romance used to make the old Benny run And I'm sorry you found out this way but how do I say that Nina's what I need in the loudest proudest way? [NINA] Leave him alone Lower your voice Our mom is asleep Promise to keep low [BENNY] I'm sorry [NINA] Lincoln I'm sorry This is my choice Please understand I love him [LINCOLN] I'll go ...I should go [BENNY] Wait, can you talk to me? (?) [LINCOLN] Whatever makes my sister happy But you should know That this isn't something you feel for another Or realize the night before Love is a lifetime of hoping and wanting of Someone...that someone And praying to god up in heaven above Waiting for kindness from your secret love But f**ing around with Vanessa last night at the club [NINA] What? [LINCOLN] That is love [NINA] [BENNY] [LINCOLN] What are you talking about? Nina Nina! (?) just dancing I can explain A little more than dancing Lincoln's only reeling you in When they were grinding out on the floor His hands were sliding under her dress We were all too drunk last night, remember? (?) He's the reason you couldn't leave Nina please believe me Please believe I've never felt this way before Is it true? It's taken all my life to say Why'd you do- I'm sorry You're sorry? Yes. Yeah you're sorry You're goddamn right you're sorry. [NINA] Just- [unintelligible] [BENNY] The moment I kissed her it felt wrong I'd been drinking, I was thinking of you Lincoln you told me you didn't want to see me You knew all along, you knew all along [LINCOLN] Get the f** out! Don't blame the alcohol You stumble in a room at 2am and wonder how it all come back to f**ing haunt you Benny, she doesn't want you she's crying in the corner- [BENNY] Because of you! [LINCOLN] Because you broke her heart! You played your little game and I hate you for it Take the fire escape and go away before I make you pay for it [BENNY] So f** you son! [LINCOLN] (?) [BENNY] You lucky I don't even f** you up! [NINA] Benny I'm not crying for you I have known you always I have watched you sleeping, creeping down hallways Just to see you Last night I felt paradise Lying in your arms Whispering in your ear for you I love you, I love you I'm not upset, I'm really not I don't regret the precious little time we got But I'm in pain and you can't stay Cuz saying I love you doesn't make it go away So don't be mad at Lincoln Because you're being lied to He's the only one on earth who loves you more than I do He's totally in love with you [NARRATION] Nina reaches into her dresser and pulls out Lincoln's songbook [LINCOLN] Where did you- where did you get that?! [NINA] “My secret love I can't pretend You're my best friend” [LINCOLN] (?)! [NINA] Well I was stuck at home And I was feeling bad So I explored your room while I was grounded And that's when I found it And what's on his mind A valentine to Benny And every single rhyme And every written line He's memorised your face “But I know I'm wrong for you So I'll stay strong and keep these feelings to myself” [LINCOLN] It's not true! I mean, The songs are not about you! I write songs, that's what I do, I try to write songs from every point of view I have to… You don't believe me? You want to see em? Here! You wanna read em, go ahead I- I'm not hiding anything They're stupid, you'll- you'll laugh. Read ‘em, my ridiculous songs [LINCOLN] Please, say something Say something to me [NINA] Just go [BENNY] But you don't understand I- I love you [NINA] I know I wish that were enough