Christon Gray - Coward lyrics

[Verse 1: Alex Faith] Yo, staring at a picture of white Jesus Hanging on the wall of my mom's house I grew up in Too much controversy, change the subject Nah, let me give you the context Pistols and bomb threats, my boy got k**ed and I wonder if I'm next This the type of question that can leave your mind vexed The truck rolled over, but me and my sister living feeling like I should've died is a different kind of feeling So I see 50 diamonds in the ceiling Where I come from we need a different kind of healing You tell me what's appealing? Noodles and grilled cheese A middle finger to the world, hustle till ya get it And I did it eagerly, a lot of people didn't We all gotta find a way so get it how you live it I know it ain't the answer it's just the way I see it But dope boys and rappers is all that we ever seeing, yeah [Hook: Christon Gray] Somebody show me how to use this power Somebody tell me am I king or coward? All I can tell you is what I've been through All I can show you is how I feel [Verse 2: Alex Faith] Feeling my heart, where do I start Holding my dear son in my arms surrounded by d**h My sister got a scar on her chest when do I turn hopeless Even when I'm trying my best I try to help cuz' I know my wife is depressed But job loss over here got me feeling distressed So I smile and tell everybody that I'm blessed Even though I can't explain to you the weight that's on my chest Tell me who do I run to Cuz' everybody in my life is fake as they come dude They don't ever come around You want me to trust you I know I've done a lot of things I can't undo But, my little brother had a baby Tell you all the things I've been thinking bout lately Now bad things they don't ever really phase me Crazy maybe welcome to my life in HD And if everybody hates me They don't hold a candle to as much as I hate me You don't like what I say You can stand in line, get a number, wait some time and come and debate me Nothing you could really say could ever deflate me I'm the definition of everything that deface means But when you face me, face me, but show me grace please [Hook] [Bridge] I feel like the culprit, I sound like the bad guy I may have to forfeit my crown for the last time [Hook]