Christ Analogue - Rigor lyrics

Cold reality defeats the mind My damaged life is ill defined My reason burns in grand despair But why am I allowed to care? Diffuse the coils we call betrayal Am I in heaven or in hell? You tell me what I've done You tell me what I've done Harsh divinity brings the a**ault My state of logic takes the fall My vision burns us to the ground 'Til there is no one left around Deceive and foil to make amends Am I in heaven or in pain? You tell me what I've done You tell me what I've done I go down Defy myself I transpire Despite myself Cold reality defeats the mind My damaged life is ill defined My reason burns in grand despair But why am I allowed to care? Diffuse the coils we call betrayal Am I in heaven or in hell? You tell me what I've done You tell me what I've done My reality defeats us all My damaged life is all I've got My tension grows in milligrams I'm not ashamed of what I am Inherent wounds about to clot Am I in heaven, am I God? You tell me why I'm not You tell me why I'm not By the time I get to you I could be ready But there is no consequence By the time I get to you I could be ready But it feels so rigorous