Chris Rivers - I'm Me lyrics

I can't remember, the last time I had an emotion Rivers runnin' deep, but see my hearts in an ocean Drowinin' in some fears waitin' for sadness to soak in But I'm numb to all the pain trapped in perpetual motion Kinetic energy recedes to devotion But see i got these memories that's keeping me frozen Compensating with all these oils and lotions So really pickin pens, but finding use in a trojan Trapped in a culture and im sippin' on potions, really Hoping it's poison so my d**h can be potent, can't stand The flashing lights and all the smilin' and posin' Imma keep it real or die in the same dirt that I rose in Reverse pheonix, burnt for ashes and smoking This kid posses qualities, the stars is exploding But never found his light you see the darkness has chose him But he's here to guide you while you hear the dragon has spoken In 3rd person, but his mental just worsens He's a, pessimist p**n star, an optimist virgin He's a, pile of leaves that just got caught in a whirlwind He's a suicidal coward who's just hoping the world ends A worthless piece of sh**, at least according to girlfriends He always gave his all and never cheated or hurt them A homeless fat punk who broke in on an urge and He never found god though prayed to every version I'm just hoping you mothaf**as can feel me I'm just giving you mothaf**as the real me And to you f**s who wanna mold and conceal me, I'm not my f**ing father scream that sh** till it k**s me Profanity tabers and shatters my tapestry I try and keep it pg but that's not a reality This world is filled with hate, grave degrading and casualties And we're products of all of it mind soul and anatomy It's a tragedy, but I try to do my best Living by the morals and boundaries I set But all of these restrictions just contribute to my stress My life has boiled down to loneliness and the mic, check Staring at this ceiling like why haven't I died yet? My plate is always filled with the type of sh** I can't digest And I gotta eat it all the ain't thoughts I could die yet My self destructive ways will help me fall I can't fly yet Uh, but I can fly if i try to Try to hold me down and I will fly just to spite you Just know my wings are always yours my heights are your heights too A dragon with some pa**ion hope you know I'm just like you I'm me