Chris Pureka - Cynical lyrics

Well you knew me pretty well But I never let you see my dark side So it's perfectly appropriate That I'm careening down the highway Screaming at the top of my lungs Praying for the courage to do something reckless Well a short hiatus of perceived bliss I guess it's back to courting the grey cloud I used to love But you don't deserve the satisfaction Of being the one who pushed me over the edge So tone it down a notch Just a six-pack and some cigarettes And I'm stumbling in the street looking something pitiful Like the old cat you put out she looked bewildered For a while but she's getting meaner by the minute Maybe I'm just angry For the love songs you murdered mid-verse Or maybe I'm just angry 'cause it all fell down for you first Because it all fell down for you first Well would it all be so easy If you had to look me straight in the eye If I were there to contradict All the pretty stories you tell to justify yourself? Well now I find it hard to believe You don't have a thing to say to me You don't write, you don't call You're just getting cruel and we're both getting petty I want my twenty bucks and my black shirt Oh you better be happy, you better be happy Well maybe I'm just angry For these battered, tainted memories Or maybe I'm just angry Because now you feel so free I guess now you feel so free I guess now you feel so... Well if you think too big or you think too small It'll lead you down the same road You'll figure out life rewards the worst in us Yeah you can take and take and take some more And you'll never get what you deserve This is me at my most cynical Now this is me at my most cynical And I'm getting meaner by the minute I said I'm getting meaner by the minute... Well you knew me pretty well But I never let you see my dark side