Chowder - After You lyrics

Yo i remember a time, when i was everything but fine, i would go to my room and just cry, sometimes i wished id just die, or learn to fly, so i could fly away or at least i could try, nothing went right, and i could never figure why, i did what i could to keep my life in line, but my monsters came to life like im R.L. Stein, like R.L. and Slappy, i could never be happy, i let the pain trap me, my whole life was crappy, and people would use words to slap me, at night those words would attack me, my life had been thrown into the back street, those monsters chased me like im Shaggy, the monsters and the pain played tag team, i guess being good was a bad thing, man look at Michael Crabtree, i want success so badly, i want my success to be app free, no apps, graphs or stat sheets, ima take the shotgun no backseat, i wanna be a star like a track meet, im Chowdar, you all go ahead and stack me, you all say i have black dreams, that i have no business rapping, well i dont wanna be bragging, but you all so bad im gagging, ima send you all home packing, even though im cracking, yo i remember a time when i had zero love, i remember what it feels like to be alone, i guess having nothing was enough, felt like my heart was at the bottom end of a cone, i remember when the only words i knew were pain and rough, sometimes id wish to be stoned, i wore a Gaga but it was only a bluff, the pain drilled through to the bone, wasn't looking for a mate, when i met you so i guess it was fate, all i had ever known was heartbrake and hate, i was in no state, it was a big Change like Brandon Tate, i was a screwed up slate, i just hopen falling for you won't be a mistake, i know youre different just like every snowflake, just dont take my trust and give me another heartbreak, like having trust in Steve Blake, like hoping he will make, that final shot he takes, luike letting one person dictate, what happens to a whole country, its insane, to throw trust down the drain, im trying to refrain, from smashing in my brain, because of this never ending pain, like bein ran over by a train, and im sayin, pain is one thing i know, im stuck to my past, i just can't let go, i want this to last and shine like Eric Bledsoe, but my hearts in a cast, and my emotions are working kind of slow, if you break my heart, ima show you what it feels like to be torn apart, like ive said from the start, dont move things too fast, this isnt Mario Kart, lets cut to the chase, youre more than just a face, and my hearts out in space, Saige how can you be queen with me im only a seven of spades, got nothing special to my name, i watch my heart as it fades, far away from this place, im so easy to miss, like Michael Kidd- Gilchrist, but someone saw me and wished, that dreams would come true, and shooting stars would come through, and baby now im chasing after you