Charr - Influence lyrics

[Verse] My Influence is life, that's real my man I can go all day and go all night About whats in God's plan But if I can figure it out, its not a good one man And shout out to Brandon, that's real my man You said that sh**, i listened to you You took me back, i feel that man! You took me in, I live how I can You bought me things, i could not of had You made me feel like I had a plan No h*mo man, you got that girl and im searching man I want a girl that can understand I rap about sh** that I have planned That's not hard to comprehend, i get it I've pushed the line again, man i did it If i f**ed up, girl ill admit it And I'm real into you, yeah I'm addicted You f** a lot of guys, man f** that shindig I understand you hate what you did But you don't ask permission you ask forgiveness And you f**ed that guy, yeah you're the witness And that's f**ed up, when you're 18 You need to live life, live like a queen The queen you are That's what you are You're a f**ing star Listen to me please, f** those losers They don't want you man, they're f**ing users But people don't believe me Because I cuss Because I express myself with an added plus Because I use different ways to discuss And that's f**ed up But you know what I won't listen to them, if they don't listen to me I can't explain my sins man, that's my plea And i love my life, i mean it really I love and hate chemo, i mean sincerely I love my cancer, it changed my life It made me better, cut like a knife It's hard in the world, i mean it is But people support me, i love that sh** But when i die, i won't forget it I just pray i live long, like a sentence And i mean it, i can't repay you, i mean it A life of darkness and you're the light Like the moon at night, like a sunrise You brighten my day, and i love when you do You act different ways, and i understand you You understand me, and that's impossible You break the laws, of what is possible You make me question the world, demean it You make me wonder if I, can see it You influence me, I can't imagine how we can agree But we do you see? and that's magic to me It's crazy to me, to see all you motherf**ers hate on me I apologize for the sh** I've done, but i don't regret anything son You go in, I go in You go out, I show them The life that I live, is slowly approaching An end, unimaginable I've sinned so strong That's the sh** I write in my songs And you think I'm strong But I'm not I know that if I love life, i cannot be wrong And that's the life I live for, that's the love i work for You're the one I search for, you're the one i care for You're the one I know more Yeah And we know each other girl, you influence me You have no idea what you did to me You made me love life, you made me live for it You were there, when I didn't adore it And I swore it, you let it pa** by But for you, id stand for it It's you That I look up to