Charisma - Deceased lyrics

What you kept inside you Is a k**ing knife now i can see it Turned its blade making you sick Your fighting was in vain Now your body is just in pain Before i lost you for good I wanted to see your face once more To never forget it You are the You are the reason why I´m standing On the hill On the hill – alone They say memories keep me alive, well, ahead going Memories are just a knife sharp, i´m sticking myself with it This anger, feeling, volcano, this exploding mind Isn´t turning that easy, you think i´m just fine I can´t hunt after happiness to my sickening life I´ll come down again from too high, i can´t stand it And pa**ing, slow running time isn´t helping me either! I wanna stop the time