Chantelle Castello (FayDay) - Beat Me lyrics

[Verse 1] 18, and I fell in love quick, and uh My daddy tried to tell me things wouldn't stick, but uh The next thing you know I'm down on the floor Hands wrapped around my neck, I couldn't breathe no more Mama cryin' on the phone hearin' everything But when she asked I knew I couldn't tell her anything What kind of woman would she think that I was? If she knew the way he beat me, and the things that he had done The first time you said, "I'm sorry babe you gonna stay." The 8th time, Nicky helped me pack and run away You chased the van, I remember I could hear your cries You told me, "Baby, if you love me look into my eyes." Well, when I was looking through the f**in' gla** The only thing that I could think was that I wished he'd hit the f**in' gas And then I thought of everything I said that night Every time you raised your hand, and every time you picked a fight [Hook 1] Just beat me I ain't pretty 'less I got a black eye Beat me I'm sorry baby, next time I won't cry Beat me Everything is my fault, I'm to blame Beat me I'll try to wear these scars proud, no shame Beat me Another teardrop on the floor Just beat me Another face slammed into a door Baby, it's okay, I'll take all the blame I'll take every last beat, and I'll take every bit of pain Just beat me [Verse 2] November, guess we missed a step in what we did Cause according to the test it says we got a kid But that don't really f**in' matter to you, does it? Cause at 5 months, pregnant, you could kick me in my stomach? Another night at the club, I was working late Nevaeh said, "What's on your thigh?" I told her it was straight "It's just a bruise where I fell..." She said, "You can't bullsh** me, he beat you with a f**in' belt!" What was I thinking when I turned around and came back? What was I thinking coming back to the same crap? Huh, I gave you all of my heart And in the end you just ripped it out and tore it all apart Sleepin' 'round while I was pregnant, I was pissed I was hurt, I was cryin', thinking I should slit my wrist Went from homecoming princess to this But I learned to fight back, stay strong, used my fist [Hook 2] While he beat me Fought back, and still got a black eye Beat me I sat there, and didn't flinch, didn't cry Beat me Everything was his fault, he's to blame Beat me Fist full of rage, and mind full of shame Beat me Another teardrop on the floor Just beat me Pushed me so my stomach hits the f**in' door And now I'm gone, you can take all the blame Cause I took every last beat, and I took every bit of pain And you can't beat me [Verse 3] So I moved back home, and had my baby girl Perfect and healthy, and now she's mommy's whole world I got my heart back, and got over you But I fell in love for real, and so it's with somebody new The nightmares are slowing down over time The memories, I try to block 'em out my mind And just remember, this one ain't you He's a lover, and he's faithful, and he'll always stay true So I hope you're happy where you're at in life now I hope you're f**in' happy with your son and wife now Honestly, I wish it'd all fall apart But you reap what you sow, so that's a pretty good start I hoped for a lot of things, and got true love And got my daughter, she's an angel from above But the only thing I hope, and I pray Is she never goes through what I did, and has to say [Hook 1]