Chan Barraza Benicki - The Waking Song lyrics

I've been missing the things I don't remember I've been reliving the things that I do When I don't eat for hours, I don't get hungry The nausea keeps me from wanting food I'm afraid of sleeping, cause I'm afraid of waking I'm afraid of eating, cause I'm afraid of puking When I go to bed, I feel empty When I wake up, I feel the same When I get tired, I don't feel like sleeping Cause the nausea keeps me from having dreams I'm afraid of doing things that make me laugh I'm afraid of doing things that distract me Cause I'm afraid that when I do them I'll still feel And that nothing will seem very funny I'm afraid of sleeping, cause I'm afraid of waking I'm afraid of eating, cause I'm afraid of puking I'm afraid of living, cause I'm afraid of dying I'm afraid of sleeping, cause I'm afraid of waking