CEO Sekhmet - In Spite Of lyrics

I really want you to stay and it's not you it's me to blame In spite of, in spite of, in spite of, in spite of I hope you won't be afraid and I don't want you to be this way In spite of, in spite of, in spite of, in spite of I don't believe a change gone come everytime I wake up And the sun don't rise inside my mind it's full of aggravation Lonely for durations constant frustration Regrets and smiles and sorrow piles and people usually faking Darkness and suffocated that's how I feel And I once thought love would motivate but that isn't real And I once thought life was more than many struggles and trouble But the happy times don't last enough for them to do nothing I got a list of beelzebubs that I wanna k** And it's still just so many more who wait for they shoes to fill I am allergic to normalcy it's not my reality And I find it hard to understand the world and society No meaning to our space and time is ever revealed Its a mystery that don't unfold with wounds that don't heal A billion humans in denial every moments bout survival And it's no such thing as friend or foe just moving bones and smiles I guess I'll just pretend the sphere I'm living in really makes sense I guess I'll focus on the false and ignore the obvious I guess! my remembrance of events isn't I guess! it doesn't matter if you lose or you win My subjection to the scenes that flash has nothing involved It's the only way I keep myself from wishing at all It's the only way I sleep and conquer insomnia I'm upset around crowds and better when I'm alone Homicidal thoughts and hate feel like percussion grenades Pressure joy negate to make the pain go away I run and wrestle dark forces presented in slumber Dreams of better days cause curiosity wonder Ma**ive mountains climbed successive peaks high Sometimes the vision hide no matter how hard you try Hope deferred sure make the weary mind heated Often retreating no matter how much you need it Good morning I'm alone, good night I'm crying Don't go, don't go; don't go, don't go.... Good morning I'm alone, good night I'm crying Don't go, don't go; don't go, don't go.... You so, you so, you so, you so, you cold You so, you so, you so, you so, you cold Alright alright alright alright I hope you die that's how much I hate you Stop trying to control me and waste my time I hope you die that's how much I hate you Stop trying to control me and waste my time