Ceeingee - From Tha Start lyrics

[Hook] From Tha Start I've had problems but didn't know how to fix them From Tha Start I knew there were ways but didn't know how to go around 'em... from tha start [Verse 1] Have you ever wondered what life will be like if you re-live it Rewrite it and enjoy life back in the day again without any sin that you have to repent for I've been down lately and I just don't know what to do I've tried to sleep in the dark for more than 20 minutes and it ain't workin' Gettin' depressed is what I'm gettin' Bettin' my life will never be good again, never the same when I wanna rewind back before I had my first window cracked I remember the boy Black hair and chubby I didn't had much of a good hobby All I did for most of my life was playin' with action figures, my Doctor Who set A toy ship thrown right at me but missed me I can remember most of my life like it was just the day before [Hook] From Tha Start I've had problems but didn't know how to fix them From Tha Start I knew there were ways but didn't know how to go around 'em... from tha start [Verse 2] Have you ever been in distress and feel a knife through your chest I have, I tell ya it ain't the best It's worse than you ever thought in your life, worse than a knee cut pain so if you suffered it then I can try and help but right now I'm going through the same so it might be a bit hard, sh** I've tried hard but trying hard can sometimes be more harder, not easier so life is a hell on earth sometimes I've had it a lot, bein' depressed and wanting to end it Lookin' at the knife beside me thinkin' if I just go through with it... will I be missed or will I not be missed If you feel like you wanna do that then take a big think and deep breath and say no I try to but sometimes it makes me wanna just do it even more so make sure you ain't me at this point I just feel down a lot, since my gran but I love her She knows that and she'll be lookin' down on me with a big smile and me to up to her but I can't see her but in my mind I can [Hook] From Tha Start I've had problems but didn't know how to fix them From Tha Start I knew there were ways but didn't know how to go around 'em... from tha start [Verse 3] If you've been down then make sure you help yourself from the start of it all happened When rap and I feel goodness inside I try to do that more but sometimes I just can't take it Hundreds can relate, I bet they can but how much though I feel like I just wanna show some anger but not so much 'cuz I wanna stay calm without puttin' a blade through my arm and goin' crazy whenever I feel a sting in my palm I try to rap but no one is lately listening to my sh** and I feel like a nobody Suffering head pains and running out of paink**ers Goin' psycho and mad with a sore head and punchin' my room mirror til it smashes and I can hear a shouting in my ears I fall but can't get back up so if anyone can help me to get back up in life and be strong then I can help others too [Hook] From Tha Start I've had problems but didn't know how to fix them From Tha Start I knew there were ways but didn't know how to go around 'em... from tha start