Ceeingee - Back In The Day lyrics

[Intro] Glasgow underground rapper Ceeingee was found on his floor in his maisonette apartment NC Origan the best friend and duo partner of Ceeingee from the duo Deadly Crusade is having hopes that he recovers Glasgow Rap Scene ain't gonna survive if he doesn't survive Ceeingee the rapper who came from a scheme called Drumchapel could not survive so let's hope he does [Verse One] My friends and I would just hang about and have fun I didn't get bullied much... well I did before but that was my friend Thomas who became my friend in the end after we settled sh** together and became best friends in the end before I moved out to my aunts house It wasn't til I reached 3rd year at secondary school I got so much bullying at that time that I've self harmed and tried to k** myself I didn't really had a great life and plus the fact that I met my ex Emma at my secondary school She was alright, I'd admit but she became a b**h afterwards [Hook] Back In The Day everything was so cool Back In The Day I had nothing to lose but whatever happens I'll still look back to the day [Verse Two] Back in tha day, I felt like a cool kid Wasn't even wicked, now I am so what the f** happened to me through the years I feel like to take 2 pills every hour of the day Overdosin' is what I'm about to do cause sh** is gettin' heavy like it's hurting me which it is... I'm gettin' mind pain from it all I'm about to whack myself dead, bang shoot me dead cause I'm insane There's no way to define my insaneness I'm insane yes, I know that... yes While I am writing songs I get head pains and about to go crazy Throwin' a punch through the f**in' bedroom wall til my fist knuckles become red and I lie on my bed to rest before the next day but I think I'm gay cause one time a boy asked me out... I was about to think about it [Hook] Back In The Day everything was so cool Back In The Day I had nothing to lose but whatever happens I'll still look back to the day [Verse Three] I just can't rest without a pill consumed Assumed that I'm an addict... maybe I am Maybe I am because I keep on takin' 'em I'm fakin' pain in my stomach sometimes though to get attention Ain't gonna deny it, sometimes I try so hard to hide it All the sh** I've been through, back in 2011 I remember my friend tried to toughen me up but I thought he was bullying me I am just regrettin' sh**, I sometimes wish I wasn't even f**in' born I sometimes wish my mind wasn't torn I need some help, someone please help me cause I'm turnin' goddamn crazy, f** this I am goin' mad enough that I sleep for hours like I'm lazy and just thinkin' up excuses [Hook] Back In The Day everything was so cool Back In The Day I had nothing to lose but whatever happens I'll still look back to the day