[Intro] Cash, Cashtastic, LinkedUpTV.co.uk, number one for talent and entertainment Listen, I tell 'em It's a dirty game on these roads g Man are lining man they used to call their cody You see me, I ain't got a lot of homies So more time I zone out on my lonely I been nicked for a next man's crime On my life, I never mentioned his name to the police My life's so peak Thinking 'bout my mum doing time, sometime I don't get no sleep If you was me, you'd cry but I won't weep I seen my little brother cry for a whole week I got sh** on my mind but I don't speak I just keep it all in cah it's so deep And I'll be real 'til my heart's got no beat At one point I was a baby with no teeth And now I'm grown with a name on these cold streets Where bare man get blazed cause of old beef When they was tryna throw dirt on my name Fam I built a line for the dirt and the cain It's too high so they can't surf on my wave I look fly on the worst of my days And yeah you might have felt a little pain rudeboy But, trust me my pain's much worse than your pain Your hurt and my hurt ain't the same Thinking 'bout my life starts hurting my brain I live life my way My Auntie got shot Thursday, then my Uncle died on the Friday This is real talk, I ain't even gotta lie mate I'm immune to d**h, nowadays I don't cry mate You'll see real if you look me in the eye mate For my age, people tell me that my mind's great I never dropped out of school like a fool to go shot I stayed in cla** until my phone vibrates Never lived life like a normal teenager Nobody was there to protect me from danger Trapped in the night, in the day I had to wake up Had to balance going school while getting my cake up I was stashing paper while you was washing plates up Over the years, I've received a lot of fake love Get money and see how fast those mates come Then when your papes done, all your mates gone I'm thinking, after this I should jump on a plane Fly away and never come to this country again I seem happy but trust me I've gone through the pain I been through the sunny days and gone through the rain You always hear me talk about the hood right You hear me talk about like it's good right Well it's not fam, truth is the hood's sh**e My n***a died and didn't even say goodbye And I ain't shed a tear I know I should cry I'm sipping yac, thinking back on the good times If we was slipping together I know he would fight If it was me that died, I know he would ride Sometimes I sit and think about my marjay She told me everything you do, do it the smart way Being ga**ed, I was busy living in the fast lane Busy getting busy in the nizzy with the hard cain I perfect my wave But I stress my brain I work so hard, I forget my age I thank Allah for every breath I take Inshallah, I'll pa** when he test my ways My life make your life seem splendid My pain and stress is never ending I don't like being asked questions So when you smile at me, I smile back just to blend in I'm immune to this, I don't cry no more I just stand tall like a dinosaur I got a bag of sh** I need to sort out in my life So you think I give a sh** about this minor war Your little brother hungry, can't feed him That sh** will leave you mentally bleeding So you might see me creasing, but deep in, I don't even feel like speaking But life goes on, I can't hide away I can't jump in a car and drive away I don't know how I'm gonna sort it out darg But Inshallah, I'm gonna find a way My names buzzing, bare man are moving funny Acting like they helped me out in the days when I weren't getting money These fake n***as only come around me when it's sunny Where were they when I was feeling bummy, jamming feeling hungry They were comfy when I was ducking from a undie They were comfy when I was clutching on a pumpy Where were they before I got money up in country Before I started traping in the 'Nam with the skunk weed