Carnal Forge - Numb (The Dead) lyrics

I'm Alone in the darkness Now, I don't know what it was I thought I'd find The cuts are getting deeper but still it won't bleed I'm lost within this: disbelieve Confusion... ...still my hatred is clear When the pain is gone there will be nothing to fear Choking on life but still I don't care I'm a nuclear reaction Of devastation I'm At war with myself Ripping the life right out of me I'm losing my grip My fear turns into anger I'm losing my grip Realize I'm not one of the dead No use in running away, demolition is here As everything comes to an end my self hate takes control From myself, within myself My demons overtake my soul k** me now, let me go The darkness will follow where ever I will go I'm losing my grip My fear turns into anger I'm losing my grip Realize I'm not one of the dead Feel the life force leaving me Body numb, I cannot feel (Mortality) Tear apart my rotting senses No longer alive Drowning in quicksand I have no choice but to swallow and drown Time is slowing down there is no air to breath I'm lost within myself ...Confusion: Nothing's clouding my mind When the pain is gone there will be nothing to fear Choking on life but still I don't care I'm self mutilation A devastation I'm at war with myself... I'm losing my grip My fear turns into anger I'm losing my grip Realize I'm not one of the dead ................not one the dead!