Capsize - Linger lyrics

It's hard to talk about someone I hardly know I just want to go back to the same things I always go back to I'm to the point of disbelief that I even question what I see Second guessing what's right in front of me I can look at my best friends, and I can see the hope, the strength, it's real Leaving me wondering when all that died in me The same pa**ion is there, but it's in an opposite vein I tried to feel that optimism, but who the f** am I kidding? I've lost so much f**ing time to all the lingering Too busy hiding from the man I'm becoming Can't bear this f**ing weight, it's much too heavy to take I don't know what's heavier, the cloud in my head or the weight on my shoulders I don't see sh** in myself, but if you say you see something I f**ing swear I'll keep trying. I'll f**ing try 'til I'm dying That's why I cover all my skin, 'cause I'm not happy with the person within I use the ink to remind me that forever exists