Canis Major - Just Me lyrics

[Verse 1] Goddamn, I need to get my sh** straight I finally accept that I have made a mistake Feel like I'm gonna be sick Catching my breath Substance in my body They don't understand yet I am a kid, trapped in a evil world The globe keeps spinnin' I feel like I'm gonna hurl And I did sh** wrong I suffered from depression Engaged by the lights As I'm going through recession I remember when my parents couldn't buy me new shoes A fresh pair J's, Like nothing to lose f**, Can I restart? (No) Life isn't a game Gotta do something with this (Rap sh**) Try and make a name [Verse 2] Did my grandma die for this? (No) Did my grandma die for this? (No) As I sit back and contemplate The joint ahead my wrist If I didn't find this music sh** Where would I be? Probably on the burbs corner Sellin' sh**ty a** weed To those f*ggots who hate me In front, they are friends Those are the kids who live life and pretend That everything is okay Everything is alright In reality, they cry Like every motherf**in' night I am just me The one and only They say we are alike But I'm different from thee f** the haters, f** the haters They don't get far I wanna above average f** hittin' par, b**h