Canaan - The Lighthouse Keeper lyrics

I'm lost in this world with my pace Everybody's far in this room I'm alone I'm freezed in this world with my bonds Everybody's near in this room I'm constrained How many days have I spent In recalling the ghost of who I was Deeply ashamed for this damnation Pleased with these blunt thorns In my heart How many lights have I turned At the seas in search of a course Keeping myself in disarray Leaving that voice crying Out for my crimes How many nights have I spent Trying to keep my soul in control How many times have I said I will do, I will change, I will go Shaken by the strength of those lies Blinded by the fear of those dreams Crushed by the weight of my sins How many doors have I closed Trying to keep the countless Shadows out of here But in the end I kept staying In this lighthouse