Camlove - Sense of Unknowing lyrics

Sense of Unknowing [Chorus:] I'm so lonely But not when you hold me… Don't leave me We'll go down this journey Wondering bout these times And bout my internal crimes I'm hoping That' you'll keep blossoming It's a sense of unknowing That constantly haunts me… [Verse:] You see I don't understand all of the sh** that plagues me Because of my dumb flaws and idiosyncrasy I honestly try and see it from the other's viewpoints But at the same time I'm not with these new joints I try to be simple keeping minimalistic Cause these societal expectations aren't realistic My dad says changing for people'll get you hurt And no matter the debating he'll always rea**ert Changing is an option, even if it's a bad one That leaves much to desire and no true guerdon I live in a state of sadness, because of these opinions While others gang up on me like a group of minions Society's a joke, but this sh** ain't funny Trying to buy friends, better get that new money Some style and popularity is based on possessions So people sit their room for days long sessions Preparing to be “fresh”, preparing to be cool But deep down they know inside they play a fool Y'know 28% of people will get bullied So why won't you go out and do a good deed? Stand up for the kid who looks like he's in distress Just a few words and you can make his pain less It sickens me sometimes the way we treat ourselves Taking a book's uniqueness and putting it on shelves We should value our differences, that's what makes us special Let's travel on a voyage, I'll bring the vessels But I got off topic, I do that a lot I don't wanna constrict ya, don't wanna be a garrote It's the fact there's a lot i need to get off my chest So in a lot of regards I don't give yall any rest… But then again, it's the same for me, in a lot of ways I'm a bubbling cauldron, that's constantly ablaze I try to be normal, but normal ain't Cam Cam's just tryna talk by spitting epigrams Hoping that people'll notice, hoping that they'll mind While isolation gives me a cage that I seem to bind So while I'm stuck, thinking on my life, wondering deeply Whether it's all worth it, whether it ends sweetly I make music for my benefit, it's great therapy But at the same… [Chorus:] I'm so lonely But not when you hold me… Don't leave me We'll go down this journey Wondering bout these times And bout my internal crimes I'm hoping That' you'll keep blossoming It's a sense of unknowing That constantly haunts me… [Verse:] So what If I can't swing dance, that doesn't really matter What If I've got these feeling I'm just trying to besplatter… I'm hopeless, in some sense of the word But my emotional longing isn't undeterred I want someone to talk to, someone to share my day with Or maybe that old fashioned sh**'s just a dumb myth I see these old movies, and I understand it's fake But that in the rain kiss is something that I'd gladly take Cause relationships only seem to plauge the more fortunate Evolutionarily perfect with that demeanor so importunate I'm sorry I'm not 6'2” and captain of the football team And don't have a Mercedes Benz with lights so bright agleam I'm a meek old soph*more, who often skips leg day But maybe I'll grow, liken to those old flowers in May If not, you'll be stuck with this Camlove Who can't take a punch and can definitely not take a shove With ranting aside, you're prolly sick of me being lovesick But heartbreak does that to you, like a beating from a nightstick Maybe I'll find someone who appreciates me If not, then I guess… [Chorus:] I'm so lonely But not when you hold me… Don't leave me We'll go down this journey Wondering bout these times And bout my internal crimes I'm hoping That' you'll keep blossoming It's a sense of unknowing That constantly haunts me…