They always wonder why I talk that sh** It’s ’cause I’ve seen a lot of messed up sh** A lot of messed up kids man they coulda been kings Yeah Every, every, yeah, uh They always wonder why I talk that sh** It’s ’cause I’ve seen a lot of messed up sh** A lot of messed up kids man they coulda been kings Anxiety has got me stressing, am I better than this? I wanna tell my story, I ain’t looking for sympathy It’s like these kids don’t realize how fragile this sh** can be I was 18, just got put on to the scene Out in Boston doing shows, I was trying to do me Has a group of friends running around and they was older than me A couple of them had some problems with some d** They was in the program, sorry to touch up on the subject, dawg It ain’t a slow jam, this real life, I had no plan He was managing the club we would all perform at I wanted to be famous and he said he had the format Homie started managing me and pretty soon We started traveling and doing shows, jamming to beats We had this one show in New Jersey, Mac Miller was headlining The school of rock in Hackensack, maybe it was bad timing But homey he was sober, I was young and drinking So he drove the car home, I guess I wasn’t thinking We’re cruising down the highway, it was 2 in the morn Back then it’s no hotel, no getting paid to perform My homie’s in the driver seat, starts falling asleep I’m screaming, “Wake the f** up” this dude’s crashing my jeep He comes back to life, we stay cruising through the night I ain’t think nothing of it other than the dude was tired I guess I should’ve realized the bigger picture But pretty soon I’ll find out but damn God I miss you This ain’t really, this ain’t how sh** goes No one ever, no one ever knows If you feel me don’t let your friends go Down that road man, man we all should know This ain’t really, this ain’t how sh** goes No one ever, no one ever knows If you feel me don’t let your friends go Down that road man, man we all should know We all think this can’t happen to us But nowadays all it take is a injury to get on some d** He was the plug telling everybody about [?] And then we found out that he was getting high before all his meetings From Percocets to Oxys, pretty soon it’s h**n And then he found a savior and pretty soon she married him And that was that, he skipped town on bad terms Had some sh** with club promoters, he ain’t hold up his word He ain’t manage me no more but you know how it is You wanna give these people help, you got your own life to live sh** that’s how I justified it and pretty soon I had more money and more problems, sh** I’m up to my eyelids And I’m sorry for the rant but then I signed a deal And thought that he was upset he ain’t get no money from the event We had a falling out, we all chucked it up To homie figuring out his life out, we all shut him out And this here is the lesson to learn, most of the time People burning bridges on you, there’s a reason they burn Sometimes it’s a cry for help but who am I To be the bigger person ’cause I’m getting f**ed up myself Not d** but the herb, but should I be concerned Is it my responsibility when somebody is hurt This sh**’s an epidemic, right? But still it took me Six years just to get this f**ing pennant right I wish I had the answer, the government doesn’t I know you’re listening right now but know somebody who doesn’t This dude nodded off while he had my life in his hands We can’t talk no more so this is how I write to you fam When you don’t do d** yourself you think these people selfish But when you think about it man, addiction is hell, sh** I’m ’bout to call my homie, try making it right That’s when I got the text that he had taken his life This ain’t really, this ain’t how sh** goes No one ever, no one ever knows If you feel me don’t let your friends go Down that road man, man we all should know This ain’t really, this ain’t how sh** goes No one ever, no one ever knows If you feel me don’t let your friends go Down that road man, man we all should know