C-Reezy - Diamondz lyrics

17 years old, so nice but so bold Some nights are so cold, but Ive been told I have a heart of gold, my feelings I've sold To the hands of women with the darkest souls I have barely little to no control Over my own world so I console With myself, I have no therapist No one to stop myself from slicing my wrists Blood stained shirt, probably think it's paint People confuse my hate for nice when it ain't I'm just shy and have everyone I hate leaving my house And trying to have fun Cause it never works out, and it never will I wanna drink sizzurp and take a bunch of pills See what happens, slow motion potion with a light pa**ion Of rapping on beats thats slapping with ba** To get the flow going so I can just take My time with the beats and I sound so good Make the power come from the speakers blasting till the roof Shakes and breaks and crackles Snacking on cereal like a f**ing jackal I wake don't bake though so I'm not a ha**le I'm the king in my thrown in my own damn castle See me live and see me breathe You'll hear some things you won't believe Wake up everyday at 5 in the morn Wonder why i was even f**ing born Get angry at the clock for waking me up I get my soul ready for taking enough School when i get there exhausted I forgot to do my homework whoops I lost it My teacher calls my mom, my mom starts b**hing I go to my room, my head starts itching I wanna make songs, but I have no buzz I don't do d** cause It's not too fun For me, I'm a light weight, a feather in the b**h in m y own case I look at my phone wait for a text from my girl The only person I love in this whole damn world So it hurts when we fight cause I don't wanna lose her I never lie to her, and I don't abuse her Shes my girl and shes all that I want She's the only girl i can be with and flaunt She gets my style and my on weird ways She accepts me when I'm normal Or having my weird days So i have to keep the love even though its hard I almost lost it twice both the times my fault I f** everything up I know thats a fact My mom called me a bum the other day thats wack But true all i do is sit in my room Nothing to do but make songs that I think are cool