C-Reezy - Rose Gold lyrics

17 years old, paranoid and an introvert Stare at girls in public, wonder whats going on under their skirts Big a** head, but don't have an ego Chris Remy's weird, thats just something he knows Make a lot of lyrics, and I'm always just cursing Listen to my songs, practice fake concerts rehearsing Stand in the mirror, and not like what I see Has become a daily habit thing in the life that I conceived From my mom, and I never really liked it I had a lot of demons that I had to start fighting They would take over control, skeletons in the closet getting large But I k**ed them all off so I was left in charge Of my life, I gotta stop being so depressed When did I start looking at my life like it was sh** I used to smile everyday cause everyday was chill Now I have these suicidal thoughts and sometimes I wanna k** The person I see in the mirror who's there Standing all crooked like, with a head of messy hair Shaking hands, match the shaky vision I have a messy life so I'm constantly b**hing [Chorus] Friends look at me with some pity, even the girls who are pretty And I don't want that anymore cause that feelings gets sh**ty When you get felt sorry for cause you just complain For the problems going on and taking over your brain My mom and I fight and I know that we shouldn't I failed the grade when I know that I couldn't I get so lazy I lay in bed all day and think Go down the street to get a bag of chips and a drink Text my girlfriend, who's taller than me and can drive She's actually doing something with her own life She has way better then me, but we still fight You can see the sadness in both of us if you look into our eyes I don't do good in school anymore, cause I lost the motivation I try so hard to impress my mom I think it's desperation Just wanna feel loved like a teenage kid should feel But to the weirdo's and the loners are the only kids I appeal