© ℗ DeRuse Music LLC - Tension (feat. Jordan Marcotte) lyrics

[Hook: Jordan Marcotte] I don't know why, I feel this tension inside I don't know why, I feel this tension inside I just wanna live, please just let me live, yeah This tension inside But I don't wanna live a life of pretend, no This tension inside of me [Verse 1: Cole DeRuse] Look this tension I feel it, during my ascension What I deal with on the daily is crazy life ain't no field trip The contention for my attention is realest when I nearest To my goals, my dreams when they're close within' my reach But man this life is hard. Sometimes it's hard to write with an open heart Hard to think there'll be open arms, it's hard to wrestle with the truth up in the dark When I can't see what's up ahead One more step and I'm at the ledge If I pledge allegiance to these demons tell me, what happens next? Will there be fame, money, power, lots of s**? CD sales, Holy Grails, lots of broken necks? From all these people that I stepped on to get where I'm at Like I really don't care how I get there as long as I get respect You think I'll go there, by steppin' on my friends like I don't care? I'm not about makin' any bit of music if there is no hope there but still The tensions that I mentioned are real All these ambitious decisions are vicious they k**, for real [Hook: Jordan Marcotte] I don't know why, I feel this tension inside I don't know why, I feel this tension inside I just wanna live, please just let me live, yeah This tension inside But I don't wanna live a life of pretend, no This tension inside of me [Verse 2: Cole DeRuse] Yo I really wish I'd try To fight it, my God All this writin's excitin', but I tend to wonder if they're gonna like it Why, does it matter when all this chatter's been battered so badly? All I imagine is rappin' then people laughin' at me These struggles are troublin', rubble's muddled it Puddles of blood in it, tunnels are crumblin' humblin' everyone who hopes In a man that's prolly gonna close they hand They don't really know what I'm sayin', they just prayin' that we don't land, yeah I know there's more to this distortion, money's blown out of proportion A portion of their extortion prolly funds abortions I may be cynical, I just feel like a sentinel Who's out there with a fishin' pole, tryin' to remain missional, yeah But still the struggle remains, I really just wanna get fame Yet remain true in my faith, maybe I should throw this away I really just wanna get paid, cuz there's no dough in the bank But they tell me God over money and I don't really wanna be fake [Hook: Jordan Marcotte] I don't know why, I feel this tension inside I don't know why, I feel this tension inside I just wanna live, please just let me live, yeah This tension inside But I don't wanna live a life of pretend, no This tension inside of me