Burn In Silence - Watching Dead Leaves Fall lyrics

I have watched the river bed dry up Covered by the orange clay dusted and cracked and peeling Know that time is the enemy If I'm not ready now I may never be Feel all the indifference locked up and cauterized Coursing through my veins Let all dreams come crashing down I have relied on wasting all I could be I've pa**ed the time (pa**ed the time) Watching dead leaves fall The hopelessness of what we learn From day of birth to final breath Have I dreamed though my life or is there still a chance How the f** can you know how this feels I've come from nothing I've got nothing to lose Day after day I die a little more Pa**ing the time watching dead leaves fall Knowing that in my time on earth I have failed I lay down among the fallen