BrySi - Help Me lyrics

[Intro] Tired of it man It's like everyday I wake up and I see darkness Gotta find my way out of this [Hook] You don't know my heart, you only see the surface You thought you knew me cause you know all of my verses In the dark, I am searching for my purpose Never giving up, never quit, I'm determined My heart, my heart You only see the surface of My heart, my heart But I'm determined [Verse 1] Yo, would you love me if I never laid a verse again Tell me how would you feel if I threw away my pad and pen Thinking back to 2010 Whenever I was k**ing it Acoustic, flip the switch, spit and hit a million Black Ops rap, what a track Wishing I could get that back Pa**ionate about everything I did back then but now I'm trapped Foggy vision, moaning, pissing, all the the things I think are black Don't know what to do or where to go, I'm about to snap Question my existence, always battling resistance I'm staring at the stars wondering why I s** at living The very air I'm breathing's been around since the beginning So just the fact that I'm breathing ought to leave my body spinning Cheesy grinning, be excited, man, you get to live your dreams You get to work from home, you drive around an H3 I don't mean to sound ungrateful, matter fact I'm very thankful But somewhere along the way the straight and narrow became tangled [Hook] You don't know my heart, you only see the surface You thought you knew me cause you know all of my verses In the dark, I am searching for my purpose Never giving up, never quit, I'm determined My heart, my heart You only see the surface of My heart, my heart But I'm determined [Verse 2] Stop, pause, you gotta think about what you're doing If you continue to neglect what you built it will be ruined And I got a list of things I need to do but I don't want to do them Then why can't I just make myself motivated, hey wake up stupid Are you in there, are you listening Opportunity is knocking You used to a boss, now you're a b**h - "What's the problem?" Where did your peace and patience go, anger is a toxin I do not like what you've turned into, this new look is rotten Kids are looking at you like, I need an adoption Wifey looking at you wishing you could be forgotten Considering her options, exercise some caution And still I act like I am a corpse in a coffin Zombie on some morphine, every single morning Rise outta my bed, feel like my head is slowly warpin' Locked inside this epidermis, blood is almost boiling Don't know how much longer I can take it, sh**'s annoying [Hook] You don't know my heart, you only see the surface You thought you knew me cause you know all of my verses In the dark, I am searching for my purpose Never giving up, never quit, I'm determined My heart, my heart You only see the surface of My heart, my heart But I'm determined [Verse 3] Gimme pills, give me something, I'll do anything at all Maryjane to soothe my attitude, that or alcohol Grew up thinking that I could hear Jesus whenever he would talk But now when I ask him for help he won't return my call Maybe he's out of minutes, either that or he's a figment And I've been trying to understand but I can't figure out religion All I wish is I could run away, and start over again Find my confidence, no consequences, I'm at a dead end Gimme pills, give me something, I can feel it in my chest Anxiety has got a hold on me, my heart is such a mess I'm possessed, this is crazy, where's my peace where's the safety Surely that would silence all the thoughts that agitate me I'm to afraid to quit, I can't let anyone down So I hide behind the mask, put on an act, like I'm a clown But when the show is over and and the bags have all been packed Is there anyone who wonders if the clown has yet to laugh [Hook x2] You don't know my heart, you only see the surface You thought you knew me cause you know all of my verses In the dark, I am searching for my purpose Never giving up, never quit, I'm determined [Outro] My heart, my heart You only see the surface of My heart, my heart HELP! HELP ME! HELP ME!