Bones Brigade - Future Impaired lyrics

Nothing matters, no, not to me I've been bending backwards to be happy Not anymore, not after today I'll stop living to please unless it's for me I remember standing with my back to the world With a blade kissing my wrist like the lips of a girl I could see myself hanging from the ceiling But as of late I've forgotten the feeling Offer me your heart and i'll swallow it whole Cause my unrequited feelings are 2 years old And if i ended my life then i'd be better off Cause i can see it in your eyes that i never meant much I remember standing with my back to the world With a blade kissing my wrist like the lips of a girl I could see myself hanging from the ceiling But as of late I've forgotten the feeling Thanks for the reminder, it really helped It's time to face up to the cards I've been dealt Since day 1 it's been all about you So i sit here wondering what the f*ck i should do It feels like my world is imploding in on me Driving my car and aiming for trees Not really caring what i'm talking about I should really think before i open my mouth And you could give 2 sh**s about the pain i'm in You're too busy being drunk with a sh** eating grin And if i don't matter why don't i die I'm not far from it i'm not gonna lie I've realized that i never meant much Is it time to say f*cking lost? You took me for a fool and i think you're right Because who in their right mind sleeps with a blade by their side Just tell me you love me, just say that you care Because i'm not just suicidal, i'm future impaired