Beyond The Embrace - Absent lyrics

I breathe the absence of life, in a part of every breath I take Inhaling afterthoughts of ruin...and regret So no hope remains as I take another gla** of pain And I swallow knowing things will stay the same I see that everything has gone so wrong for me And I wait and see if I can welcome back the light I'm following the suffering And the ones that never heal They're a part of me and I can't just leave them behind So I cry these acid tears, as I weep for those like me The ones whose apathy, ahderes them to this fate So I lie awake and the bottle always calls my name With an offering that I cannot refuse Who will come to taste the quality of despair It's so sweet that I enjoy it time and time again is it charity that calls to me selling fragments of her soul Is a part of me foolish enough to indulge When the time comes let the blow come quickly and the blood run red I worry not 'cause I'm already dead So I'll not speak my last words For I've already said enough Their painted on the walls So will you bleed for me And together we will cross the sea Two for the ferryman to take our souls across I see that everything has gone so wrong for me And I wait to see if I can welcome back the light Following the suffering for the best parts of my life Now your rid of me But I'm not the only one.