Better Off - A Lesson in Loving lyrics

I've been learning a lesson That I really don't want to learn Open diary Dress her In the words that hold my curse So we grow apart So separately Ignite the hurt that scarred us in our youth I hope to become new And the truth is in tears behind my eyes I'm afraid of losing my own life Might have lost it for composure Can I feel good again for the night I've been learning a lesson That God damned me to never learn The worlds a bully that pushes You've got to push back to make it work So we grow apart so desperately To find the rope that could tie us to something new Can I be tied to you And the truth is in tears behind my eyes I'm afraid of losing my own life Might have lost it for composure Can I feel good again for the night When you need me in the silence Try to find me on a wire When you need me in the silence Try to find me out on a wire I am hoping for an ocean Bring new strength now, lift me open Nothing ever seemed so hard To be something And the truth is in tears behind my eyes I'm afraid of losing my own life Might have lost it for composure Can I feel good again for the night