Ben Proulx - Happiness lyrics

[Verse 1] Ripped jacket with the stains on the surface He was the kid that everyone was happy they weren't Sitting alone invisible to every pa**ing person Wondering what it would feel like to have a purpose He never had a childhood Forced to parent his own parents like no child should His father is a veteran drowning his memories with liquor And his mother's taking pills that doctors give her but they only make her sicker With no sibling to walk through this stuff No ends, no money, no friends, no buddies, he ain't talking enough He don't put himself out there, he's awkward too much Well, who in his life would he learn confidence from? And he sits behind me in cla** One day I heard crying from the back Finally I turned around and I asked What was wrong And the first time I heard his voice He said "all I know is pain, if this is life, what's the point? Show me what happinesses is... [Hook 1] His voice gloomy he looked through me he said Show me where happinesses is Desperateness on his face I didn't know what to say I couldn't think Show me where happinesses is He put his head down And he didn't make a sound Show me where happinesses is And I just froze Like I don't even know... [Verse 2] Perfect makeup even though she don't need the extra touch She was the girl that every other girl was jealous of Silky hair, blue eyes, thin body with Curves, but her new clothes only cover parts of it She's almost looked at like a goddess to all Attracts every pair of eyes when she walks through the hall But she's likable too, she's not the one to gossip Evident when you talk to her, she ain't ever pompous Wealthy home filled with knowledge and newness She was the youngest out of 3 book smart students And her parents were so proud, pride was all around her But I always noticed something was a little off about her She sits in front of me in cla** One day I noticed heavy make up on her wrist when she pa**ed papers back After cla**, I approached her and I asked about it She said it don't mean I have it if I'm around it Show me where happiness is... [Hook 2] I looked into her eyes I saw her for the first time Show me where happiness is I saw regret She walked away in a sec Her voice rang through my head Show me where happiness is I watched her walk away She became another face What she say? Show me where happiness is And I just froze Like I don't even know [Verse 3] I don't know because I ask myself the same thing every single day But every single answer has been vague How come some appreciate the sun after the rain While others just see the puddles as if nothing has changed? And as I watch people living the life I couldn't take, I wonder if they see a way out to mentally And as I watch people who live the life I idolize, I wonder what they feel and what isn't seen As I watch my whole family take pills for depression I wonder what true happiness really means I wonder if because I'm genetically predisposed to it, that is the reason I find myself feeling weak Only sometimes, in and out I guess it's scarier when you don't have a reason to be feeling down Sometimes I just am Sometimes I just feel no one will ever understand Sometimes I wanna cry Sometimes I want to crush my family's so-called medication look in their eyes And tell them they don't need it as long we just have each other But then sometimes I watch them suffer I just wonder where happiness is [Outro] Show me where happiness is