Balance and Composure - Kaleidoscope lyrics

This is the first time that I've seen Exactly where I want to be And how the f*ck I'll make it there And I'm sick of looking back At all the chances I once had To see for the first time They're all crawling away from it slowly, all afraid of the light But i see colors and I see structures, strictly one of a kind I think I know which way i'm headed, just need to follow the light What's the sense in waiting for it to come? If I fail i know i tried But every time i turn the page I see your god-damn haunting face It's in my way Rest a**ured this will stay the same Well go ahead and drain my veins Drain my veins I'm not looking back, I'm not looking back at all the chances I once had