Awakening Sun - What I've Become lyrics

Waiting, they are waiting for deliverer Of the boat that is on the other side Don't push me, I’m not with all of you, Get out from my way! I, I can't believe that I'm here What I've become? What I've become? It's not me... After every breath I realize That there is no air And I wonder how my heart Is still beating flooded with poison? It had to stop long time ago But it's still beating, it's still beating I, I can't believe that I'm here What I've become? What I've become? It's not me, it's not me! Lost in illusions I've turned away from life Temptation was stronger than the world inside me What I've become? What I’ve become? It's not me