"Here is every letter, every love note, every haunting memory The ones you wasted with your hands wrapped around everything that breathes Be a better man than the ones you hate The ink that bled, the tears I wept, the makeup running down my face I've had enough of your excuses, I've had enough of your complaints Sometimes hopelessness can be a self-inflicted pain" "You get stuck in your own head Dead set on the worst situations" I swear, I swear, I hate what I've become Free will seems a fiction when you live without love You always say “the grey will fade” Teach me how to grow, teach me how to change Fault line, I am not yours My beautiful, I've committed an act of treason on myself I asked for your advice but I never thought to use your help I can't remember the last time that I smiled An understatement I know, I know it's been a while I used to tell myself that I'd get better with the weather but the seasons have all pa**ed and I'm still standing in the rain Still searching for a way to change the color of the sky; I walk under it quite often and it's still a shade of grey I'm over feeling like teeth laid on concrete; stomped into submission with gums that always bleed I refuse to ever be held back Because a mind that spits regression is a mind that doesn't think Swing low, swing fast I refuse to be held back I swear, I swear, I hate what I've become Free will seems a fiction when you live without love You always say "the grey will fade" Teach me how to grow, teach me how to change Teach me how to grow