Avoid-A-Void - Myself Within lyrics

I say that I'm trying to find myself All I find is a man running the same mistakes Now I say that I need some time on my own But I find myself kissing some others lips Do I lose myself or do I find me again? Sometimes I aint looking for me Only trying to find you in every touch On somebody that I'm not looking for So I avoid to catch your eyes as we talk Cause I'm so scared that I will find myself within A glimpse of hope, a shimmer of light I never can turn back again Now I'm left behind I feel overwhelmed Crashed by thoughts in the dawn of fate In these times I can't call twice It is easier for me to pretend some lies Too hard to say what you're begging for You can not hear words I never spoke