Auburn - My First Time lyrics

There was no flowers, candles Didn't see no fireworks He barely even knew my name There was no pleasure, whatsoever All I know is that it hurt me And I wish that I could take it away My first time I still remember when I met him Just turned 18, it was late '07 He would smile with a wink, my heart, it would sink My cheeks going red, but my brain, it would think About the women in the crowd, yelling loud when he's seen What would a man like that want with a girl like me? But still, I would imagine it, dinner with a candle lit Watching cheesy movies but for me I knew he'd handle it See, I was a virgin, friends would tease and call me Magdalene Didn't really mind cause I was waiting for a guy To put a ring on my finger not a hand on my thigh Take care of my heart and not put tears in my eyes So why did I ever put myself in that position? Sitting back wishing that I could just take it all back And yes, promise if I got that same call I guarantee that I would never call back There was no flowers, candles Didn't see no fireworks He barely even knew my name There was no pleasure, whatsoever All I know is that it hurt me And I wish that I could take it away My first time And he was handsome, charming Even met my mom, nothing really seemed alarming My dad kinda mad said, "I don't like that cat" I told him "you're my dad, dad. I kind of expect that" Had a show that night and check in to the Weston Had time before the show and planned on wasting it, texting I was in the lobby feeling like the only brown, something like bobby Watching all the rich folks sipping on Mondabe, he saw me Snack and a movie, me and him, so lame, I was giggling But I didn't really mind cause I was waiting for my guy To put a ring on my finger, not a hand on my thigh So why did I ever put myself in that position? Sitting back wishing that I could just take it all back And yes, promise if I got that same call I guarantee that I would never call back There was no flowers, candles Didn't see no fireworks He barely even knew my name There was no pleasure, whatsoever All I know is that it hurt me And I wish that I could take it away My first time Got into the room and it was real quiet Felt a little weird, I was no longer excited I turned on the tv but he could only see me Not once did he even try to find a movie He leaned in and kissed me for the first time at last But then I realized he was moving too fast Forcing me down while I was gently pushing up And then my gentle wasn't gentle cause he wasn't giving up Grabbed my arms and my hands and held 'em on my chest Rubbing on my navel started kissing on my neck Tried unbu*toning my pants to get 'em off, while I tried to get him off Fighting for my innocence and he just trying to get off Crying inside and then my tears caught up He took it all from me, everything that I was proud of I laid there three hours, numb to the change Didn't even have the decency to look me in my face And when I think back to that night It's hard for me not to ask why, why So I just keep it all inside So then I think about the next girl like me She may never make it out the devestory So I gots to try, while I got this fight There was no flowers, candles Didn't see no fireworks He barely even knew my name There was no pleasure, whatsoever All I know is that it hurt me And I wish that I could take it away My first time, why did I ever have to feel that pain Now I'm never gonna be the same My first time, why, didn't have to go down that way But I know I'm not the one to blame for that night My first time