Ascidzz - How Do YOU Feel lyrics

[Monologue: Xianne Marie] Uhmmm, you know, uhh, I sit in my room, you know, and a lot of times, I just, you know, think about... you know... how much I've done. And in reality, I haven't really done a lot... um... especially by myself, you know all that, you know, like, "teenager sh**"...ummm you know the teenager lifestyle where you have kids that can go out with their friends, and their parents don't really give a f** [Verse 1: Ascidzz] Yeah I saw this girl in a Walgreen's, she looked just like you: Biker jacket and dark mood; reminiscent of white girl Hair flows like a river, the distant look in her eye, too Innocent as a child; Flex your patience inside you Ultimately you need a firm shoulder for you to cry to She does that often, they think it's false and thus they despise you But I understand, knowing me you know I'm obliged to No one listens to you and your blood boils inside you Why the f** would they claim that you ain't entitled to your feelings just because of frivolous items they buy you Where'd they supply you as an individual human? Their investment in raising you in these cruel institutions Instead duplicated in your room and throughout the brood, now you want to escape, but you don't know how to -- But where the hell would you go? Babe, where the hell would you go? [Bridge: Ascidzz] Restricted at every corner Encouraged to go inside Instilled in you you don't want to Because there's so much inside But really all that means nothing What's wrong with seeing the sky And feeling free cause you're held against your will I wish I Could do something, but all I can do is just sympathize Experience some of his Life: hard on the other side Witnessing you get tortured, gets harder for you to cry Don't let no one try to tell you how to feel [Verse 2: Ascidzz] I saw this girl in a Walgreen's, she looked just like you: Eyebrows and a nice smile; reminiscent of white girl Same color of your hair, the distant look in her eye, too Got excited, I thought it was you for a moment, but I know Ultimately you need a firm shoulder for you to cry to She does that often, they think it's false and thus they despise you But I understand, knowing me you know I'm obliged to No one listens to you and your blood boils inside you Notice you're constantly changing: My influence on you has impacted you in such a way that your body and mind conflict It's not something you're used to: You normally cruise through Nodding your head and doing whatever you are told to do Regardless of if it's wrong If you know, you internalize it Keep kissing a** to these tyrants Look how limited your Life is When I was going through my sh** I put a knife to my wrist Popped some prescription medicine Hung myself in the closet But my situation was much different, plus I'm a guy And your parents aren't so insensitive to hit you with objects Now I'm thinking about it: "f** you, I hope you die, b**h!" Back to the present problem: Where were we? Oh yeah, you basically walk around with an obli- Gation to please your parents But they ain't pleasing your needs They're running away from answers You insist on the question; They hit you with the hammer Belittle you about nonsense You react to it and stammer You going quiet and listening Not caring, but still you're listening Another f**ing person that's Boiling with resentment [Bridge 2: Ascidzz] Restricted at every corner Encouraged to go inside They tell you no when you want to Got bored of the stuff inside What's wrong with getting some air? What's wrong with seeing the sky And feeling free cause you're held against your will? I wish I Could do something, but all I can do is just sympathize Relating some into his Life, cause he knows what it's like Continuing to get tortured, gets harder for you to cry Don't let no one try to tell you how to feel [Verse 3: Ascidzz] "Ascidzz you're such an angry person You're such an angry person A f** with others Then ask why everyone hates me person They can't see my pain When it was deserved, attention searching You need to watch your mouth Cause what you say can hurt a person Ascidzz you're f**ing stupid You're caught in a f**ing stupor You're cancerous, cause damage And keep spreading just like a tumor Recording songs on microphones With made up stories, Ascidzz? You just hang with the bad kids What kind of name is 'Ascidzz'? I'll tell your mother to come up here just to whip your a**, kid You know she will, so I would suggest that you fix your act quick You say you don't care? Let's see if you do when you get stabbed, b**h I'll call your family, an audience All of them clapping You're finally out the way We can proceed to feed the ma**es With backwards an*logies Speak, but don't expect us to practice You just get mad at everything: Look at you -- why you angry? You're useless, Ascidzz, no screw you Ascidzz--" No you betrayed me I stopped writing lyrics in notebooks Cause you just take them I don't accept no more promises, why? Cause you just break them I've been alone since I was the cause of my momma's aching I should've died from the Deprovol that my mom was taking The stains in my teeth symbolize the huge mistake she made in Keeping me and raising me to put sh** like this down on paper I wouldn't have so much anger if you ain't generate it I'd maybe speak my mind if you didn't extremely hate it I wonder why since my brothers follow you in enslavement Your greys imminent, my open mind has closed all of your patience You know what you did, you know that you f**ing screwed your an*s But you don't care because you're so stuck on your husband's great dick And all his money to keep supplying for all your babies Cause "you can't do it alone, it's too much" and "you can't take it." So be submissive, don't give a f** about who you're missing Cause you keep texting me little snippets of movie scriptures Sentiment ignorance, have no patience for bigots you've turned my heart to an abyss, fall for eternity in it Like your grandmother in your dream I'm waiting for mine with you in it Morning wake up is ground coffee k** you and let it brew in it [Outro: Xianne Marie] And it's like, as I said the sentence, as it formed in my head-- thousands of evidence came alomg with it. And that's kinda why I can't see right now. The idea that I'm a trophy child, you know? The idea that I'm a trophy period. See, like, babe, people use you because of your energy and because of your intelligence. And people use me because of my intelligence and because of all the things that I do. And, it really s**s, and she talks to her coworkers and her friends about how great I am and about how intelligent I am and you know, she tells me all the time about how people at her job all love me and she tells me all the time about how she tells people about the programs I'm in and the things that I do and how intelligent I speak and how much I can get done and how much I can do and how much potential I have. And every time all I do is I laugh and all I do is I giggle at it because it seems like I'm actually getting praised about something -- but I'm not. It's actually making her look better