Arnold Mischku - Imperfect lyrics

[Click Here To Read Chris Webby's Explanation of "Imperfect"] [Hook: Jaye Michelle] Insecurities and anxiety Kept internally, trapped inside of me And I really just don't know why it don't show On the surface, I'm so imperfect, dealing with the Insecurity and anxiety Kept internally and trapped inside of me Even if I keep it to myself better never let it show On the surface, I'm imperfect [Verse 1: Chris Webby] Tryna learn to embrace all my imperfections But the voices in my head got me waking up sweatin' Alprazolam, point five milligrams in my hand when I'm stressin' But self medication isn't helpin', second guessing while I'm dealing with depression Pills to wake up, pills to go to sleep Habitually, continuously Chemically imbalanced lookin' in the mirror like this isn't me And I'm left to wonder who the f** I am And my listeners been witness as I try to find myself and trust I can And that's why I'll always love my fans Without y'all I'd be off the deep end, every other weekend But this game is like the coliseum, you'll get taken out the moment that you weaken People comin' for my neck, like they Boba Fett, and I got a bounty on my head Givin' me insomnia but when I'm sleepin' all these demons'll surround me in my bed Now I'm feelin' like there's really no escape I used to go and roll a J But even that don't work anymore, they just never seem to go away Need some novocaine to control the pain And now these mother f**ers know the name I thought that'd make it better but it's worse, maybe it's too late to ever hope for change So I'm sayin'.. [Hook: Jaye Michelle] Insecurities and anxiety Kept internally, trapped inside of me And I really just don't know why it don't show On the surface, I'm so imperfect, dealing with the Insecurity and anxiety Kept internally and trapped inside of me Even if I keep it to myself better never let it show On the surface, I'm imperfect [Verse 2: Chris Webby] I've always been too nice and too trusting And time after time that approach left me with nothing But some drug problems and a lot of debt Feel the noose gettin' tighter on my neck Try to tell myself that I ain't stoppin' yet But it's gettin' harder tryna calm the stress I got turned down as a youngster, by every girl I ever liked in cla** It's prolly why I talk about the chicks I'm (beep) now when I write my raps Like some sort of validation of a mechanism of defense Like I'm not depressed, yea I'm havin' s** But I'm still alone, and I'm still a mess Chain smokin' cigarettes by the light post Cherry glowin' usin' that to light mo' Breathin' in the chemicals and hold it, whiskey got me loaded, damn I need a life coach I'm a nice guy, people take advantage of me and my money then they step out Leave me left out, full of self doubt Life line's got a low thread count And after all the years of being taunted Hated on, not bein' wanted Bein' thought of, in the wrong light Now I'm feelin' like I'm bein' haunted By these demons, I try to leave em But it's like I'm swimmin' in Epoxy, they always stop me Try to keep my head above it but the waves are gettin' choppy [Hook: Jaye Michelle] Insecurities and anxiety Kept internally, trapped inside of me And I really just don't know why it don't show On the surface, I'm so imperfect, dealing with the Insecurity and anxiety Kept internally and trapped inside of me Even if I keep it to myself better never let it show On the surface, I'm imperfect