There's a dichotomy of honesty & logic that exists Because the truth doesn't always make sense & the more I become aware Of the sin that sits in my square My fear is people don't see it in theirs On October 23rd I a**umed the identity of Marcus In turn, became a target of the heartless & the godless & the startled & the martyrs that have seen their dreams of love die But lust lies & never subsides their thugs cry Never have I felt so incompetent Because of lack of accomplishment Even a lack of common sense Faced with the no's of my life Funny how words k** This narrow road of salvation, & I'm the 3rd wheel My learned sk**s, God considered them dead How you call me selfish & then tell me consider myself Because me, often I confuse my wants & my needs What I give my heart to, leaves But seems to haunt in my dreams Taunting me in my sleep Talk to me while I'm wake All of this happened after I invited God in my space These rappers smile in my face Ever step in the gym They wish me well, but never better than them Here's a gem Never let your yes to God depend on a dream Because if it doesn't happen the way that you schemed Here's the thing I started rapping for Jesus Never considered politics Thought that we would all hold hands & sing how God exists Unfortunately God is not in our plans We've turned God to a brand & made gods of our brands We've made god out of man Made gods of our voids What if my pa**ions extended beyond what I can control Like oh, "I'm an introvert" But used it as an excuse to be elusive To what we're not producing We'd rather titles than disciples It's divisive & we worship at the throne of our vices as if we're licensed Like, what we've defined as ministry, are really capers I've seen them sell their soul for a penny made of paper It's amazing how God's covers our shortcomings The Lord's coming, the Lord loves us in all colors The allure of breaking the law It's amazing that we've made it this far Many are scarred Like fireflies in a jar Shining despite the ceiling Trying to fight the feeling Neverminding opinions Jonathan Baker What would happen if I started to see me The way that You see me? And what would happen if I started to see You For who You really are...