Lately been more concerned with sanity than my safety I wish my biggest problem was complete strangers hating me They make believe & Maybelline situations they can't achieve & I don't call it anger or hate It's more like lazy dreaming I'd rather put effort into "wait & see" Waiting seems amazing til my patience screams it can't breathe My faith ain't in my fate, it's in my Savior, even crazy things I'd never tell a soul I say it's sewn, too much to load but He controls it See I'm watching all my friends shoot shots on social media Your WCW liked my pic from 30 weeks ago What you call a feat, I call it corny & the need to know is I need to steep my soul in Jesus fore I lead a home Cuz I know me, I'll leave a home Believe me I'll make a call & say Barbara, it's Richie It's crazy, I can't tell apart the rappers from the Christians Terrible fashion, no pa**ion, only mentions I'm standing next to ppl if they needed to would lynch me I pray the Lord submerge me so a mist would be like drenching So my shadow would heal Ministry wouldn't be feelings It would fulfill the will of He who sent me They would sense that He was real But He's real to me Lead me to the edge Speak a word to free my soul & say what needed to be said And I dread the day my pen is Void of conviction More than words & intention ..It's a product of tension It's a product of forgiveness Please don't pardon my position I don't party, though partly a part of me has been simmering Since, granny left Mississippi when she was 16 & my daughter on the honor roll sending texts that she misses me I wanna be so close to God He can speak mysteries In the midst of me More than a mission, want Him to live in me They lifting dreams So selfish, toss your list of things Into the sea of forgetfulness Don't miss it, please He's here