Ariana Grande - Pain lyrics

Stop! My heart is sinking You were once young Running wild and reckless Felt I had a point to prove to these b**hes That didn't like me, hate, no reason Stop! I'm not who you think I am Seems I've been hurting all my life, but I grew, overcame Changes in my life, no voice, no decision, just pain Always crying I met you with dark clouds over my head Made it hard to see my light Innocence gone Looking for love in all the wrong places When I met you Wounds from before still sore In search for acceptance to have some friends Far away from home, looking to be liked, looking to be cool My youth, I cried, I found happiness before I moved here Always trying to move back home I was young Trying to remember when I was happy Truth is, I'm happy, but why do I feel so empty Happy, happy, happy was back at home And I never made friends in high school Got family and friends back home Don't need a friend, learned family is enough I didn't ask to come here It was 'pack and move' one day when I woke up Friends and family shed their tears but I cried oceans, young and broken hearted, sore Fourteen and out of place Ugly and full of scars, old and new Smiled some and cried, soaked my pillowcase I bloomed and scars wide open, cut deep, still beautiful Beautiful but I felt pain I tried putting the pieces together, but it broke again I met you with a broken heart Not from love but from life Scattered and bruised I'll always have these ugly scars Couldn't see beauty with a cloud over my head, all I seen was flaws Instagram covered my insecurities, likes You probably think I'm lying, but I didn't see beauty when I looked in a mirror Never accepted, always teased, always bullied, always moving, always pained, always me, that's who you met My life, MY LIFE What about my life I felt alone So alone So alone And it's not because of you Pain came, I was young Life cut deep Always smiling, Always sad You left me too Like all my "friends" from that raggedy a** highschool If only you knew how many times I got left out One day we're "friends", next day, gone One day we're "friends", next day, gone Hate me for no reason at all Hated being used Hated being abused By "friends" from that damn high school I waited for you Took my mind off the pain Then you went away too I waited for you You changed I cried more and more pain Unwanted by you, I knew Don't want to say I needed you, sad about life, you helped my get through I cried more and more pain Unwanted by you, I knew Numb Broken Cold I pressed through Met you in a storm, then you left, it continued to rain I changed, tried being happy, but sadness turned into anger Why couldn't I be happy, things going on at home Angry, Angry, Angry Always hurting I didn't care about myself anymore, years of pain Angry with my life Not all about you, not all about you Deserve to be happy, but got pain in a storm I wanted to live in one place, grow with the people I knew, family, friends Don't really know how it feels to be around your day one crew Having fun, laughing, a shoulder to cry on too I pushed you away, you left I was hurting, the truth I didn't know what else to do And if I hurt you, I never meant to Sorry