"I know that without me God cannot live a moment; If I am destroyed He must give up the ghost." [Angelus Silesius] I beseech you, God to whom many sinners pray From the depth of the dark abyss where my heart fell Expelled I was from your tedious grace to the pits of hell So can you please cease to deplore my opposite, nay only way For aeons I descended down Till I saw the dreadful truth of which man wouldn't know I, degraded bearer of thy sacred light - to which I never again will bow When I rise to avenge myself with darkness The anger of the damned shall flow I was cast out by the retinue of angels weak Shone to the few who me would seek A rebel I was, radiant my glow, afar, My wisdom fathomed by the morningstar And O you fools, in herdlike fight, stampede And when creation falls, you must build anew, With nails that sting My hands - They grow pa**ionate on a lie. But You know the veracious one was I