Anthony Urrabazo - Worst Dayz lyrics

[?] I know I have to watch them pa** away [Hook] Just get through worst days (X4) Not today [Verse 1] I close my eyes, feeling pain, I start writing sh**/ I pour my heart out to the mic, feels like I'm talking to a psychiatrist High as sh**, disgusted, man I seem to love it/ I die and go to judgement, couldn't let go of all my grudges But f** it, that bullsh** with Nemo, it needed to happen/ I got love for BloodShot, cuz they believe in my rappin' And Reidy still gives me a try, with all the sh** since I been signed/ I had 17 addresses, since 2005 Facing time cuz my momma's boyfriend keeps on hurting her/ He got the fist, I get condemned, Lord why am I cursed with hurt? Wishing mom gave a sh**, but it's not a perfect world/ I just hope you find whatever it is you're searching for I haven't achieved any dreams, I'm not what I planned to be/ My family abandons me, damn, I guess they couldn't handle me Let me explain Anthony, hip hop and pot helps me keep my sanity/ So I turn it up, roll a blunt, and f** your b**h under a canopy [Hook] [Verse 2] My life wouldn't mean a damn if it wasn't for my fam/ My love for them, turned me into "Who I Am" Catchin' hell from my aunt, the sh** we in wasn't my plan/ I wanted to grow up to be a fireman I wanted to die, tried suicide so many times/ But my sister crying with me, kept me alive I just want her life to end up better than mine/ No sellin' nics and dimes, just for fish sticks and fries Committing crimes to get by, I'm not a role model/ And don't stop where I quit, sis, please go further! Don't be a waitress, get your education, and keep the tip/ Cuz if you don't succeed, your family will treat you like a piece of sh** With all the sins I did, I had to pay the price/ Wouldn't give an arm and a leg, so he took my first child's life I'm high as a kite, I keep a supply of that kife/ So when my mind isn't right, I just light up and take flight [Hook] [Verse 3] My life was way much easier when I was a child/ If I could only go back then knowing what I know now Depression hides behind a smile, 100 proof alcohol/ Everclear, thats how we do in the south, Howdy yall I'm about to fall into the devil's pit, I feel his clench/ Pop an ox and smoke some pot so I don't have to deal with sh** Real as sh**, get a 36 and conceal the sh**/ So if I ever see Cornealous, I'll probably k** the b**h I'm trying to stay afloat with all the holes up in my boat/ Can't cope with being broke and selling dope is all I know f**in with these hoes that start off, "just trust me"/ That really means, "f** me till you run out of money" Well at least I got my family, mommy and daddy still love me/ They tell me they're proud of me every day as they hug me Tell my dad I go to college, studying law/ So he'll take my picture out that box and finally hang it on the wall [Hook]