ANTHM - Mind Playin Tricks lyrics

I think my mind playin tricks on me sittin in a crucial state Starin at a crystal ball I think my future's great Am I hallucinatin? Whats the use of debatin You see the moves I'm makin I ain't talkn bout the money, the clothes, or anything in between Its funny you chose what many people would think But I think beyond that, I'm tryna keep my eye on where the time's at Soon we expire and then we climb back To where we came from, not the woman that we got our name from I'm talkn bout the strange one, d**h The sh** that people look at with a closed heart Permanent vacay without the fckn postcards I ain't tryna be morbid, I just know I can't afford it Lookin at life like we don't get deported I'm feelin too illegal, me and my crew of people too cerebral To get caught up in the root of evil But im sayin live fast and die young As if i forget, yo that chapter might come Livin for the moment til this rapper life is done But wheres the nuggets of the wisdom ii should pa** to my son To influence him, am i glued to the right type? Quite hyper, yeah the flute of the pied piper serenades Hold my breath while it marinates Can't look medusa in the eye so im wearin shades And out of habit im grabbin a drink As i think i can take a sneak peak while she blinks The sensation that i describe's what i been facin C'est la vie its temptation I'm 25 aimin for the mainstage I forget that my favorite rapper died at the same age Lordy lord some perspective lets live the message I best give attention to the rest if I wanna show growth, a whole host of things that i hold close Separatin me from most folks But every now and then my mind stays playin tricks Lookin at the life like damn i was made for this Sip more drankin til im bangin chicks Strip pole naked tits Soon enough i'll be layin stiff Right up in the dirt reflectin yo my life was incredibly bright What the f**'s my legacy like I ain't sayin that its one or the other I'm just sayin man its one of the other What am i treatin my youth as a cushion for I dont wanna push the door, gettin to the end Start actin like im bush and gore Demandin recounts, openin my mouth tryna speak out Time flies ngga gotta peace out