Anne Heaton - Why I Resist lyrics

I'm writing you this letter from my car I'm still wondering about the dark Is it just like nighttime? Some say it does not exist I have sabotaged my own success If there is no darkness Why would I do it? I am considering I am considering this That maybe my need to not conform Is closer to my heart of hearts Than is my need Is my need to fit in That would explain Why I resist That would explain Why it's come to this That would explain That would explain this What is strange to me Is this yearning This yearning I am preferring To the thing To the thing that I love It's the same with the music I choose the song That almost delivers I follow along Hope it saves the best for last I craft my story just like that And that would explain Why I resist That would explain Why it's come to this That would explain That would explain this It took a while for me to include you In my nighttime prayers It took a while for me to include you Now you're always there And at first your love is just how I want it I don't worry about your d**h Then it sneaks in And I ache for your happiness And nothing explains Why I can't resist Nothing explains Why it's come to this Nothing explains Nothing explains this